Walking Into Adulthood Crisis

I don’t know how most of you will be able to relate to this, but I for one am facing a… walking into adulthood crisis (WIAC). And what the heck is that?

Let me explain.

Since we were in school, we always had a step of things moving forward. Like from elementary you knew you would go to middle school, then high school and then college… and here you sit at your first job with all these individuals around you thinking, so what next?

Now don’t get me wrong. I know where I am heading with this on the work front. Like, work for a couple of years an do a post graduate degree. But… what after? Whats the point?

Why?

Whats the meaning of all this and whats my goal?

And the answer I have right now: I. Dont. Know.

And frankly? Its unnerving at times. I don’t know what I am suppose to do anymore and there are so many things running around in my head, I am unable to find a direction for myself. The mere thought of being an adult is scary at times because you realize have this clear expanse of life and you don’t know how to fill it in. What do you do? Whats the point?

Sighs.

I know, hard truth isn’t it? One day, you are happy and cheery at  your first real job, invigorated with this whole realm of fascination and the next, you question your entire existence. Why does that even happen? You dont know. What can you do to it? Hmm….

So lets do something, I am going to write a list of things I can do to stop myself from fearing a blank life’s canvas and continue being motivated in doing what I do. That is living. 

• Make short term goals

Achievable in nature and not something totally out of the blue. Things like, lost a few kilos (or pounds) saving up to buy this really expensive bag, that classy dress or finish that book you always wanted to read or tv show series you always wanted to see (Dr, Who for me!). So many things to keep yourself occupied with, because the last thing you want to feel is… that your life leads absolutely no where. And not like, this is going to give you the meaning of life and achieve nirvana, but… it will help you look forward to something ALL the time. And really that’s what counts the most. Small little things.

• Make lists

Oh boy. Lists. Any kind of list, EVERY kind of list. Just write things you always wanted to do, or get, or try or something. Anything. Take a notebook, some colored pencils or glitter pens ( you know you want to use them shiny things) and write down every god damn thing you want to achieve/want/say/try/wish for. As the lists grown bigger you know that you aren’t lost at all. You have all these hopes and dreams and aspirations, and you are continuously doing something every day to achieve them. Today is just one day. Let it pass.

• Write

Write like the world is producing too much paper and you are its only hope to use them and stop the world from turning into an over spill of paper. Ohkay, that was a horrible metaphor but you get the point. I kid you not, for me, writing has been the only constant thing in my life as the world around me changes. Change is not a bad thing but it gets you down at times knowing things will not be the same. And everyone always has a lot to think about, but not a lot of trust worthy individuals to share them with, so why not write down everything that is in your head? It will keep you calm if you are anxious, settled if you are jumpy and clear if you get all muddles up inside with all thats going around you.

• Breathe

Thats what I am doing right now and its helping me chill the fudge out. Its normal to feel this way, I know I am feeling unsettled and anxious about the future but I also know that right now there is nothing I can do about it immediately. So, I am just breathing and letting things fall into place. Sounds so simple, doesnt it.

That’s all I can do right now. Yes, I still feel a little vulnerable on a few fronts but that doesn’t mean I am going to hide myself from experiencing life in all its adventurous glory. Yes, we all have those days and I don’t think there is anything wrong in feeling that way once in a while. It just gives us clarity on the things we HAVE to think about. So its fine. Its perfectly fine. Lets just not make a habit out of it, otherwise it just makes you a whole lot pessimistic.

Right. So.

Hi, I am feeling a little off today and I think its perfectly normal to do so. I am now going to go home after work, make myself green tea and find a friend to talk to while sitting on a bunch of pillows and throwing a huge blanket over myself. Aaaahhhh. =]

What are you going to do? Let me know!

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I’m being followed.

So.

I’m being followed….

On WordPress!

Thank you so much to those who clicked on the little +follow button and found sufficient interest in this meek newbie blog. Thank you so very much. You made my weekend very happy.

And on that cheery note:

Ah, today was a fabulous day at work. The internet connection went dead for a good 4 hours and it just came back! People were at each others cubicles, chatting, some we outside smoking, me? I went for a walk and got me chicken dumplings, chocolate and hell lot of biscuits. Yum.

And then I had a wonderful conversation with a friend whilst sitting in the open office balcony. It was windy and drizzling and the only thing missing was a big mug of hot chocolate with a fluffy white, blissfully perfect dollop of whipped cream like so:

And… I have been given a good amount of work to do. Which should prove to be challenging. Also, the weekend is around the corner so…

Wait.

See? This is not what I wanted to turn into. A weekend begging, working individual. Ohkay, cool. The weekend is here. Nice. But that didn’t mean I had less of an eventful week. I had a blast.

I was sick on monday (so goodbye monday blues) Tuesday I realized I have way more optimistic, cheery people at work that I imagined. Wednesday I fell in love with my job when the Creative Director took my (now if I think about it, really immature) pitch presentations and beautifully explain what I need to work on, how I have potential and even better? Told me some of my ideas were awesome. Yay 😀 Today is chilled out day! And Friday is a day before Saturday so double yay.

So the point is, I will look forward to the weekend but, I wont survive on it. I’ll do many more things during the weekday too! Like a few friends working in the area wanted to take me out for lunch. So we might do that sometime next week. Play kingdoms of Amalur! Read!  I just found this really good book here at work on writing and creating digital content for the online world, by yahoo! So I’ll read that at work when I’m free.

Oh! I also found this on stumbleupon today:

This guy is called a Quokka. He is called the happiest animal on the planet. Why? Because his face is structured to form a permanent smile no matter what he does!

And he’s kinda cute. 😀

Sighs. And with this random content babble I hope you all have a great weekday-end!

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