So I kinda have been out of action for a little while and with good reason!
While moving houses, starting a new job, managing whats left of a social life and still making time for family, I have managed to learn a million things on multi-tasking, mood swing(ing), days where the only person who can pick you up- is you, and a whole new brace of the real world.
So this is what I tell myself: Breathe.
Which I think I have mentioned in my previous posts, but this time it has been way more applicable. How so?
Well let me explain with a way you could probably relate.
When you start something new, or do something new, you sort of lose yourself in the enthusiasm of it all. And then you fizz out little by little and the excitement dies down. Or how my mom likes to call it, the shaken up coke bottle.
If you shake up a coke bottle and then unscrew the cap, the drink with spray out with so much force initially, but after a while the fizz would die out. Which is EXACTLY what I am.
And sad to say, I sort of succumbed to the bleak confused world of the work life. A little.
Alongside a lot of other side projects which all got me thinking, whats the point of doing them, if I’m not enjoying what I do? And its creating more of a confused mess rather than keeping the creativity color in me alive.
So this is what I did:
- I started writing at work
Yes, believe it or not but the answer to everything I to write it down. And I sort of started writing a lot at work, not only because I have free time on some days, but because since I am in the work environment, I can focus better on what I have to do.
It does magic for you, I can assure that. So I began to write down all the side projects which I was involved in and prioritized them in matter of importance. Obviously, work being first. Then came furniture shopping for the new house, then came this blog and other writing projects. And then my ever pending reading list, gaming list (sighs) and so on.
- Changed to a better work lifestyle.
Since I got used to sitting down a lot, I started feeling low, lethargic, eating unnecessarily, and oh god-that sick bloated feeling wouldn’t go away. So I formulated a work habit. I walked a bit of my route to work, stuck to my every faithful green tea, started drinking water every time I wanted to munch and divided my lunch into 2 parts, one to eat during lunch time, and the other during a coffee break at 4, hence eating less but enough.
- Perk up the office table!
Oh this part was fun. I started customizing my office cubicle pin up board with my things, dropped in a few feng shui charms, added a cup of glitter pens (alongside normal ones) and a few of my favorite quotes and things to do.
I guess when you see something bright every day, you sort of turn your mood in for the better. Also, inspiration can strike from anywhere!
Its awful for some to even include this here but frankly?
I am a serial text-er and I LOVE it. I love getting texts, I love texting people. I love the constant (or frequent enough) exchange of happy (sensible) lines of conversation to keep you going through the day.
Whatsapp is highly addicting and also fun when you are in groups with loads of people sharing utmost random of random-est things that make you smile and helps you remember, all is not lost if a pitch you LOVED doesn’t get approved.
- Sorting things out inside.
Honestly, no one can do this but you. You wouldn’t believe the amounts of things I have discovered about myself which I wouldn’t have if I hadn’t just sat down and thought them through. Of course, don’t over think it, but think enough to know what you’re doing, where you are going, what you want to do, when, how, why, who, everything.
Go for a walk, have a cup of hot chocolate on your own and just try to harness the positive energy inside you. Its there somewhere, I can guarantee it. A flicker of sunlight, a ray of hope, a glass of optimism, anything. Its embedded there somewhere. Just dig a little to find it.
But its there alright.
More than anything else, this post was for me, to remind myself its ohkay to lapse out, as long as you don’t live in it. Walk right out of it when you are done, more uppity than before. But its ohkay to fall back a little. We all have out moments and projects, and busy lives to manage, juggle, piece together and even make.
I guess we all need a little reminder sometimes.
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